Nothing done!

Well, in my last post I said that I was going to be writing 20 letters and taking 31 pictures; well guess what I have not even started. As for the same about my diet and starting to lose weight. If I put more time into starting and finishing something as I do not doing; I bet I would have 20 great letters and 31 great pictures, I may even be down a few more pants sizes. I am bad  at getting started, finishing is not hard once I start it is like the chips saying "once your pop you can't stop" and I can't. I had the idea to make tutus for about a month before going out and getting the stuff. Then when I did I went wild, I love making them and see the eyes of the people I have made them for. Now if I could just get it in my head to start everything else. I AM GOING TO TAKE THE PICTURES IN OCT, since it does have 31 days. I say it in all caps hoping it will make me do it. I have not started the letter out of fear, the fear of how they will make me feel and what will come out. While I have been thinking about whom I would write to and what I would say I don't know if I can over come the fear. I guess I just need to get off my back side and do it. I do believe it will make a difference in a large part of my life and some of the things I hold in and still get upset about. I think that is what I fear if I do write it all down and get it out when something happens whom can I get mad at? No one but myself, which really is the only one I can get mad at now for letting it all still get to me and let it in pack my life now. I do think I need to let it all go and move on for myself and my family.
Well, onto better news. Our family has a new puppy which we are in love with. Her name is Maggie.
I will post a picture later, I don't have any good on my computer right now. She is a small dog weighting in at 3 lbs and my baby girl loves that because she can walk and hold her.
Well, here is until next post, hopefully I will have started on something!

20 letters/ 31 pictures!

I found this idea on another blog by: Living our love song. I have done a lot of internal growing while reading many blog and this blog is one that really had me with the first post. She blogs about two ideas one is to take 31 pictures in 31 days of anything that you with like and to talk about it. I will also be doing that. The second one is to 20 letters in 20 days. I hope I can get it done in 20 days. I am (thinking) of blogging each letter, but we will see how I feel about it after each letter. Here are whom you are to write a letter to:

1. A stranger
2. Your spouse, or your future spouse - even if you've never met them
3. Your child(ren) or future child
4. Your first love or crush
5. One to each of your parents
6. Someone in your life who has caused a lot of pain during your childhood
7. Your sibling(s)
8. Someone you've hurt
9. Someone you don't understand
10. Someone deceased
11. The person you'd want to take care of your children if you & your spouse are no longer alive
12. Your best girlfriend
13. Your dreams
14. Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like
15. Your 13-year-old self
16. The person you miss the most
17. Someone you know who's going through the worst of times
18. Someone that caused someone you love (not you) a lot of pain when they were a child
19. Someone that changed your life
20. Your reflection in the mirror

I think this is going to be good and hard. I am afraid I will get a little mean. Pray that I don't get to mean and hurt anyone feelings.

Why don't you join in the "fun" of either one. If you don't have a blog put the pictures on your facebook.

Welcome September!

It is finally September, and I am so glad. I met this month is my arm's wide open. It is only a few days in but I can already to see what this fall has for me to do. I am in the beginning of planning a Halloween party, which I can't wait to see all the fun we will have. I had a yard sale with my sister-in-law's which is not my favorite thing to do. I also have had two photo shoot with my little girl. One at the park and one that my mom's house with my niece and nephew. This is a few from the first one.

A few from the second one.

My niece Scarlet.

My nephew Lee.

I will share more in a few days. Now when I started this blog I had no thought of using to help me gain control over my life, but I am in much need to lose some weight and have been pulling it off. So, I do believe I will start blogging about how it is going in hopes that it will keep me going, and since in my mind someone out there is reading this someone will be cheering me on. We will see how it goes. So to start I am at 211 lbs and want to get to about 145 lbs I have not set a time to at that size because I feel that if I come to that time and have met my goal it will only make me mad and I will give up. While I don't want to still be talking about it in two years but I will start working at it and see how long it takes. Thanks.